The Tunic (part 23)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)

  Livia did her best to smile as she walked with Cato inside.  She wondered if Mary, Martha, and Lazarus would still be willing to help them after seeing Cato draw his sword. She didn't even want to think what might have happened.  "Everyone,  I would like you to meet my husband Cato. Cato this is Lazarus and his sisters, Mary and Martha."
  Lazarus quickly stepped forward.  "I apologize for our unannounced visit.  We mean no harm.  In fact, just the opposite, we would like to help you and your family."
  Cato quickly glanced at Livia.  "Cato," Livia began, "Cato this is the Lazarus.  The man Jesus raised from the dead.  They are close friends of Jesus. Cato....they want to help us.....they have a plan." Then very quietly Livia added, "They know everything.  I told them about the tunic."  Livia could see Cato's face turning red as he forced himself to control his anger.  "Cato, please don't be angry with me. They are very good people.  If you would just talk with them.  They could teach us so much about Jesus. They want us to be followers of Jesus with them."
  "Martha, why don't you and Mary talk with Livia and Remus outside for a bit. I think it would be best for Cato and I to speak in private."
  "Yes, of course.  We will just be outside."
  After everyone stepped outside Lazarus said, "Cato I realize it would be difficult to trust a complete stranger. Perhaps it would be better if you got to know me first.  Let's sit down and talk.  Please, ask me anything."
  Cato ran his hands through his hair in frustration. He didn't know why Livia would have put the whole family in danger.  This is not how he had expected things to go tonight.  He just wanted to get on the road.  He had no time for conversations.  Cato looked at Lazarus and sized him up.  He honestly did not look dangerous.  He seemed very calm.  Cato let out a big sigh.  He shook his head back and forth as if he was telling himself not to do this. Then the question he had wrestled with for weeks bursted out of him,  "Did you actually die?"
  Lazarus eyes widened and his lips tightened and he slowly nodded his head up and down.  "Cato let me try to explain what I experienced.  I do remember being very sick.  I remember having the fever for many days. I remember being very weak...and then.....I felt as if I was not physically connected to my body anymore.  I remember being in a place I had never seen before.  I wasn't in pain anymore.  I wasn't afraid. I just felt like I was waiting for someone.... I can't explain it, but I knew Jesus was coming.  He was going to meet with me soon.  I didn't feel anxious or scared.  I was totally at peace.  I had no concept of time.  I didn't even care. I was completely happy.  
  And then, I heard His voice, 'Lazarus come out!' A jolt of energy ran through me and suddenly I was conscious of my body again.  However, I was very confused.  For some reason, I was all wrapped up.  I couldn't understand why I was wrapped up. I didn't even know where I was.  Next I sensed a bright light filling the room. I tried to make sense of why my head, feet and hands were all bound up. Instinctively I just walked toward the sound of Jesus' voice. 
  I heard Jesus say, "Untie him and let him go." I had no idea why I was tied up. I felt someone pull the cloth from my head. The light was so bright I could not even focus at first, but I could hear.  
  I could hear so many familiar voices screaming and cheering, 'He's alive!  Lazarus is alive!'  Within seconds I could feel Mary and Martha's arms wrapped around me.  They were laughing and crying and praising God all at the same time.  I actually did not even understand what was happening at first.  I didn't know I had died. I didn't know I had been in the tomb for four days.  This crowd of family and friends which were gathered before me had witnessed my death, my burial, and my rising."
  Cato listened very intently.  "Why did He not save you before you died?"
  "Jesus wanted everyone to witness the glory of God! He wanted everyone to understand and believe that He was sent from God! No mere man could bring life back to a corpse. Jesus told Martha this, 'I am the resurrection and the life; whoever believes in me, even if he dies, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die.'  Jesus is God's Son!  Death has no hold on Him!  He, himself, has risen from the grave! I believe that with all my heart! Jesus is the risen Lord, the Messiah! He has asked us to share this good news with everyone!  This is my mission--our mission, we must tell the world about Jesus!"
  Cato was deeply moved listening to Lazarus.  He had heard this story from countless others, but never quite like this.  This was not just a story. This was a personal testimony of truth! Cato was beginning to understand why Livia was so trusting and then--Cato's heart sunk very low. "I am a terrible sinner.  I helped crucify Jesus.  I rolled dice to win His tunic.  I am not worthy of His promises."
  Lazarus smiled.  "None of us are worthy of His love or promises, but Jesus offers us His forgiveness so that we may continue to grow in love and share His love with others. Before they removed the wrappings from my head, I was blind to the miracle he was working in my life.  Now my eyes have been opened, my heart beats to the sound of His voice, and I will follow Him wherever He calls me to go.  You were blind to His love until you saw it reflected in your son and wife.  You, too, were a corpse, but now, He is calling you to a new life. I know this may be very dangerous for you, that's why we want to help.  We have a plan."
  Lazarus and Cato continued to talk for a long while.  Lazarus explained to Cato how they could hide in the cave at the back of their property until it was safe. Cato and Lazarus discussed a use of different signals which would alert Cato to any danger.  Lazarus promised he could bring them food and also that he would discuss getting Cato, Livia, and Remus baptized with Peter and John.
  Cato was feeling very hopeful with this new plan. He looked at Lazarus very seriously and asked, "Why would you do all this for us?"
  "Because we are brothers and sisters in Christ now.  God is our Father.  We are His children. We must love the way Jesus loves. If I demonstrate with my own actions how to love like Jesus, I hope to inspire you to do the same. Once you are baptized, you will receive His Holy Spirit. This powerful love of His Spirit will change you--if you allow it.  One by one we will inspire others to join us, to live in the Kingdom of God right here on earth.  A kingdom not of wealth or power, but a place where the love of God is visibly seen in the heart and mind and actions of all. I do not see you as a Roman soldier or a sinner, but as my brother in Christ."
  For a few moments both men remained silent.  Cato had never had someone unselfishly reach out to him like this before.  There was something so different about Lazarus.  His physical appearance did not boast of strength, but his words spoke volumes to his inner strength and trust in Jesus.  Cato was beginning to understand why Livia felt safe to confide their secret to this family of three.
  "Lazarus, I do not even understand everything that I am feeling right now, but I know something inside me has changed.  I am tired of the violence and turmoil in my life.  I have been longing for something different.  I knew something was missing in my life, but I didn't know what that something, or more accurately, that someone was.  I want to know Jesus.  I want to be a part of this kingdom you describe.  I want my son to have peace and love in his life.  I don't want him to reach for a sword as easily as I do." Cato quickly brushed away a tear of regret.  "I would very much like to accept your proposed plan.  I would like to learn how to love as Jesus does. I would be grateful if you could continue to teach me and my family."
  Lazarus smiled.  "Come on, let's go tell the women.  We can all help carry your belongings."
  Cato stepped outside and was greeted by Livia's gaze.  Cato looked deeply into those eyes he loved so much and reached out for her hand. "Livia, I have accepted Lazarus' generous plan.  Our lives are about to change forever.  Are you ready for this?"
  Livia threw her arms around Cato with delight. "Yes! I have everything packed!"
  That night Cato, Livia, and Remus walked away from their former lives in search of Jesus.  Cato found this new journey to be more rewarding than he had ever imagined.  After two years of hiding,  Cato, Livia and Remus were baptized.  It was a day of great joy for all of them. When Cato emerged from the water he tightened the belt around his tunic and remembered the tunic he had won that fateful day. Cato now realized what an incredible gift he was given. Through Jesus' death on the cross he was given a new life. A life of love, peace, forgiveness and eternal salvation. Filled with His Holy Spirit, Cato, Livia, and Remus spent the rest of their lives thanking and praising Jesus! 

-Susan
  

The Tunic (part 22)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  As Cato rode home he had a million thoughts competing for his attention.  He had already requested three days off from his superior officer.  The officer was reluctant at first, but Cato pleaded his son was in need of healing.  It wasn't the first time he had made this plea.  Everyone knew Cato's son had been in a fire.  Cato, however, never told any of his fellow soldiers that Remus had already been healed-- healed by Jesus.

   Cato had stopped at their home in Jerusalem. He left his soldier's uniform behind and changed into a garment he had bought from a Jewish man at the market. For a moment he wondered if he was making the right decision. It was crazy to think he would place his life and those that he loved most in danger.  It was even crazier to think that he had so much trust in a God he barely knew.

  Cato pushed his doubts aside as he wrapped up some blankets.  He wanted to give the impression that he was carrying his son in these as he rode away.  He didn't think anyone was watching him, but he didn't want to take any chances.  He began to ride in the opposite direction of Livia and Remus and circled back when he was far away.  He had been accustomed to taking a different path to them every time.  Their safety always weighted heavily on his mind. Cato wasn't exactly sure how to pray to Jesus.  He wasn't sure if it was the same as the Roman gods, but he begged Jesus to keep Livia and Remus safe. Over and over he prayed, "Please, Jesus, punish only me.  My sins are many, but please let them live.  Do not punish them for my sins."

  As Cato got close to the house, he noticed a group of people gathered outside.  His heart started racing.  "How did they find Livia and Remus already?  I had been so careful."  Instinctively , he grabbed for his sword.  He would do whatever was necessary for his family.  Again Cato prayed, "Please Jesus, punish only me.  Let my family live!" 

  When he was almost upon the crowd, Cato drew his sword. He was ready for a fight!

  Livia's eyes grew wide as Cato got close.  "Cato! N0! NO!  We're safe!  We're safe!"  She turned to Mary, Martha, and Lazarus, "Go inside quick!  He doesn't know who you are!"  The three of them ran quickly inside before Cato had dismounted. Livia ran towards Cato, "Cato, please put your sword away!  We aren't in danger!  They are friends.  Mary and Martha are my friends.  Lazarus is their brother."

  Cato quickly assessed the situation digesting Livia's words. Friends. Safe. No danger. Cato looked around.  Remus was standing next to Livia.  Both were fine.  Cato cautiously put his sword back into its sheath.  He reached his arms out to Livia,  "You're ok?"

  "Yes, Cato.  We were just talking.  We are not in danger."

  Cato let out a big sigh of relief as he engulfed both Livia and Remus into his arms.  "I was so worried.  I thought...."

  "It's ok.  We're ok."  The three just stood there holding each other for a few minutes.  "Cato, I want you to meet Mary, Martha, and Lazarus.  They are good people, Cato.  They won't hurt us. Although I'm sure you gave them a pretty good scare."  Livia raised her eyebrows and threw Cato a smile and squeezed his hand. "Come on, let me introduce you...we have something interesting to discuss with you."

  "Come on, Papa, you will like them.  They are very nice!"

  Cato let out another deep sigh.  "Are you absolutely sure they are not enemies Livia?"

  "I am absolutely sure they will not hurt us," declared Livia. "You know I would never put Remus in harms way." Livia was about to head towards the house when she changed her mind.  "Cato is everything okay for us to leave?  Is there anything I should know?"

  Cato looked around before answering in a very soft voice.  "Yes. We will leave today before anyone is aware of what we have planned."

  Livia lowered her voice as well,  "Do you have a definite plan for us?"

  "I don't have definite plans.  I have bought us some time.  We have at least three days before they will come looking for us.  We should be able to put some good distance between us and them.  We will have to find a good places to hide along the way.  I promise I will keep you both safe.  I will do whatever I have to do. I want to leave as soon as possible.  Can we just ask these people to leave?"

  Livia hesitated for a second.  "We could ask them to leave, Cato, but could you at least come meet them first.  There's something I want you to hear."

(to be continued...)

-Susan

  

The Tunic (part 21)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  Livia looked around.  Everything was ready if they were to depart tonight.  She was exhausted and anxious for Cato to return.  She wondered how angry Cato would be when he discovers that Livia had shared everything with Mary and Martha.  She would have to tell him . . .  eventually. . . and hopefully before Remus said anything.  She wondered if it was right to ask Remus to keep this a secret for a little bit?
  Livia headed outside to find Remus.  She decided to put all her worries on hold for a few minutes.  This may be the last chance they would have to just play openly in the fields.  Livia had no idea what their immediate future might look like. She quickly found Remus and challenged him to a race.  Remus loved running now, and he discovered he was actually a fast runner.  Watching his face light up with a big smile as he ran made Livia laugh with pleasure, too.  Losing a race to Remus felt wonderful!
  Livia had sat down for a minute to catch her breath when Remus shouted,"Look Mama! I think Martha and Mary are coming back!  It looks like someone else is with them, some man."
  Instinctively, Livia grabbed Remus' arm and pulled him close to her side. "Remus, please, let me handle this.  If I tell you to run, I want you to run as fast and as far as you can.  Try to find a good place to hide until Papa comes home."
  Remus was shocked, "What?  Why would I do that?"
  "Please Remus, you must do as I ask!  Stay right here.  I will go talk to them first." Livia released Remus' arm and slowly walked towards Mary, Martha, and the unidentified man with them.
  As Livia approached them, Mary began yelling, "Livia!  Oh, Livia! We are so glad you are still here!"  Both Mary and Martha were smiling as they approached slightly out of breath.  Livia remained silent and motionless.  She had no idea what to expect.  
  Livia was even more surprised when Martha reached out and grabbed her hand. "Livia, we want to help you! All of you! We ran home and told Lazarus everything! Oh, this is our brother, Lazarus."  Now that Lazarus was close, Livia could not help but notice the family resemblance.  Lazarus nodded his head and smiled.
  "Livia, I'm sorry we left without saying anything.  Martha and I knew we wanted to help you immediately, but we needed to discuss the details with Lazarus first. We know of a place not too far from here that you could stay.  It's nothing special-- it's actually very primitive.  It is a cave at the very far end of our property.  Many years ago, it was used by my relatives for herding.  It's been unused for a long time now. It is a bit difficult to find and very few people even know it exists."
  Livia was completely overwhelmed.  "You are not angry with us?"
  "No," said Mary and Martha in unison.
  "Livia, I'm sorry if we gave you that impression.  Your story was quite unexpected, but it is obvious that the Lord is working in your lives. I once heard Jesus tell his disciples that a healing that touched a person's heart and caused a transformation was by far more incredible than any physical healing," explained Martha.
  "Oh, yes, that's so true.  Remember sister when He said that heaven rejoices more over one sinner that repents, then ninety nine righteous people who do not need to repent!"
  Livia smiled at hearing those words. "There is so much I need to learn!"
  "And we can teach you if you stay close!  We could also help keep you safe and make sure that Remus always has food to eat," promised Mary.
  "I am so very grateful. I never would have imagined such generosity, but I will need to discuss this with Cato."
  "Of course you do.  Lazarus would like to discuss some things with Cato as well.  He wants to ensure our safety as well as your family's safety.  I think we need to let the men talk, and then we will be able to work out all the details."
  "Mary, are you sure you want to risk your own safety for us?" Livia asked.
  Mary smiled as if she new a secret. "Livia, the Lord is calling each of us to a new life.  We must leave our old ways behind. We must love one another the way Jesus taught us. So many times I heard Jesus preach about loving our neighbor. The world could know true peace if we just loved one another. That is how others will know we are disciples of Jesus--by our great love for one another."
  "Mama, I see Papa coming!" screamed Remus.
  Livia turned her attention to the road and saw Cato approaching. She felt both excited and scared as she wondered how she would explain things to Cato.

(to be continued...)

-Susan

The Tunic (part 20)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  Livia slowly told Mary and Martha everything.  She began with the day Jesus had been crucified and Cato's role as a Roman soldier.  Livia could physically see the pain in Mary and Martha's eyes when she told them Cato had won Jesus' tunic.  Jesus had been their close friend, perhaps this was too much for them to hear. Livia then told them how the tunic miraculously cured both Remus and herself.  She shared the details of their painful injuries from the awful fire and how Remus could barely walk.  She did her best to describe the powerful surge of heat which coursed through her body as she had been healed.  Remus explained in his own words what he had felt as well. Livia revealed her unquenchable thirst for Jesus ever since the healing. The woman sat very still as they tried to understand all that Livia was sharing.
  "I am no longer the same person." Livia explained.  "I want to be a follower of Jesus more than you can imagine, but I know my sins-our sins-may not allow us.  Cato, too, has changed.  He no longer wishes to be a Roman soldier.  In fact, he is making plans for us leave.  Cato will be killed if Pilate and the other's discover his desire to follow Jesus.  He comes home tonight and we may leave immediately." The silence felt alienating to Livia.  She wondered if she should have said anything at all. Feeling desperate she pleaded, "Please, I beg you to keep our secret. I would not have shared any of this with you, except when I heard everything that you have experienced, I want to live with faith like yours. I heard you say that Jesus came to save sinners. I want Jesus to save me. I want him to save Remus and Cato, too."
  "Livia, where will you go?" inquired Martha.
  "I don't know.  It will be up to Cato.  He will keep us safe."
  "You would risk your lives in order to follow Jesus?" questioned Mary.
  "Yes.  We are sinners, but we desire to change.  Cato heard Peter speak of being baptized.  His fiery words touched Cato's heart deeply.  We all wish to be baptized, but we realize we have much to learn.  We will hide until it is safe.  Then we will begin again."
  The women looked at each other.  "Livia, do not take this the wrong way, but we need to step outside for a minute and process everything you have told us," explained Martha.
  Martha and Mary stepped outside to talk.
  "Mama are Mary and Martha upset with us?" Remus asked.
  "Remus, I don't know.  There are so many things I don't know."
  "Well,  I'm very happy we are going to follow Jesus.  He's happy about it, too!" revealed Remus.
  "And how do you know that?" asked Livia.
  "I had a dream about it.  At least I think it was a dream.  I was laying out in the field when I heard His voice.  I didn't even know I was sleeping, but I heard Him say, 'Remus I want you to follow My ways.'  I told Jesus, 'Yes, I will!'  It felt really good to tell Him that. It made me very happy!"
  Livia smiled at Remus and hugged him tight.  "Well if you made that promise to Jesus, then I think you should do everything you can to keep it."  
  Livia went back to packing some belongings when she heard Remus shout, "Mamma I think they left.  I don't see them anymore."
  Livia was sad that Martha and Mary had left.  She had hoped they would have understood.  Livia realized that things might be more difficult then she had originally thought.  Still she really wanted to follow Jesus. She was ready to endure whatever it would take, because like Remus, she had felt Jesus calling her as well.  She, too, had told Jesus, "Yes!"

(to be continued...)

-Susan

The Tunic (part 19)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  The next twenty four hours felt like a lifetime to Livia.  She spent half her time very worried for Cato's safety and the other half longing to be a follower of Jesus.  She was anxious, scared and excited all at the same time.  She wondered how difficult being in hiding might be.  It was a little past noon on the next day when Livia heard the knock on her door.  Her heart began racing.  Who could it be?  Cato wouldn't knock.  Had someone discovered their plans?  Were they coming after her and Remus next?  Livia's eyes desperately searched for Remus when she suddenly realized he had gone outside!  Livia was crippled with fear. Her legs were too heavy to move. Panic was coming over her when she suddenly heard--
  "Mama! Mama! Look who's here to visit us!"
  Livia's maternal instincts kicked into high gear as she ran towards Remus' voice.  She opened the door prepared to fight for their lives when she saw Remus smiling and talking with. . . Livia let all her adrenaline escape with one big sigh of relief.  Remus was talking with Mary and Martha!  Thank God!  Livia smiled as she greeted Mary and Martha.  "Hello!  It is wonderful to see you both again!"
  Martha exclaimed, "Livia we have wonderful news!  We have just returned from Jerusalem!  The Holy Spirit has come upon us!  We have been baptized in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit!" 
  "Livia it's true!  We have seen the risen Lord! We have to tell you all about it!" burst Mary.
  "Please come in," invited Livia.  "I want to hear all about it!"
  Mary and Martha took turns describing everything they had recently experienced.  They had been on the hill when Jesus rose into the heavens.  They had joined in prayer for nine days in the upper room asking for the Holy Spirit to come!  They described in detail the powerful wind that blew through the room and the tongues of fire that came to each one that was present!  It was the most incredible, compelling experience of their lives.  Livia tried to absorb every detail.  Just like Peter, the woman were powerfully changed.  They wanted everyone to know that Jesus was truly the Christ! 
  Livia listened very carefully.  She knew she had so much to learn.  She revealed to the women that her husband Cato had been in the crowd.  He too had been moved by Peter's words!
  "Livia, join us! Come be baptized! Both you and Cato can become disciples of the Lord with us!"
  "There is nothing I want more!" confessed Livia.  "but we may have to wait a little bit."
  "Livia let nothing come between you and the Lord.  He is calling you!  I can see it in your eyes.  You have heard His call.  You must answer Him!"
  "Yes, yes I want to......it's just I must....I must...." Livia searched for the words.  "I must tell you our story first.  You may not want us."

(to be continued...)

-Susan
  

The Tunic (Part 18)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)

  Day after day, Livia had hoped Martha and Mary would visit again. Livia had so many new questions to ask them.  She wondered if she had offended them since they had not returned.  
She worried that perhaps Cato was right, and they had realized what he had done.  Remus even went to visit them at their house, but he said no one was there.
  In the evenings after Remus went to sleep, Livia and Cato continued their conversations about Jesus.  Cato would now come home and share any new stories or facts about Jesus. Unfortunately, though, Cato began having problems at work.  Some of the fellow soldiers began to accuse him of being too soft during his interrogations. Cato knew they were right, but he insisted it was part of his strategy to get more information.  Cato wished he could speak with Jesus' closest disciples, but they were still in hiding.
  Cato began feeling very anxious.  He knew that he was not going to be able to play both sides of the fence much longer.  He knew he could not answer to Pilate and Caesar and be a follower of Jesus. He could feel the conflicting stress rising within himself.  He was going to have to choose.
  Late one afternoon Cato came bursting into the door.  Livia was surprised he was home so early, but even more surprised with his uncontained excitement.  "Livia! Livia I was there when it happened!"
  "You were where when what happened?"
  "Livia the followers, the ones closest to him, they are no longer hiding!  I was patrolling the streets this morning because of the Jewish celebrations, when all of a sudden they all emerged and began preaching to the crowd!  The one named Peter spoke boldly about Jesus being the promised Messiah and how he had indeed rose from the dead! He was so compelling!  He said everyone should repent and be baptized in the name of Jesus.  He said those who are baptized in his name will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit and be forgiven of their sins!"
  "Cato, that sounds amazing!"
  "Livia you have no idea! I somehow understood everything he was saying!  Livia he was speaking in the language and dialect of the small town I grew up in!"
  "What?  What do you mean? He spoke just to you?"
  "No!  I was riding amidst the crowd when he came out and started speaking to everyone!  Livia everyone understood what he was saying!  Everyone heard him speak in their now native language!  Everyone was talking about it!  People from Judea, Egypt, Mesopotamia, Asia, and Rome all heard the message in their own language!  You should have heard Peter speak!  I felt so alive when he spoke!  I can't explain it!"  Without warning Cato picked Livia up in the air and swung her around with excitement!
  "Cato, what does this all mean?"
  "Livia I think you were right!  We are being called to be his followers.  I wasn't sure before, but now....now I know!"
  "Oh Cato!  How do we do this?!"
  "I'm not sure exactly.  I know we need to be baptized!"
  "Today?" Livia was as excited as Cato.
  "Ummm......probably not today.  But soon.  We have to be very careful." Cato suddenly seemed very serious as he looked into Livia's eyes.  "Livia our lives are about to completely change!  I think we are going to have to go into hiding for awhile."
  "Hiding?  Why?"
  "Livia, I'm going to have to leave the army.  I can't be a follower of Jesus in Caesar's army.  They would never allow it.  I'm going to have to leave and they won't like it.  They will probably send people to kill me."
  "Cato are you sure?"
  "Yes, no one gets to leave on their own."
  "What will we do?  Where would we go?  How will we survive?"
  "I don't have it figured out yet.  That's why I said we can't do it right away.   I... I have a some money...the money from the tunic.  That will last us for a little bit."
  Livia's excitement turned into fear.  "Cato I don't want to lose you."
  "You won't.  I'll try to figure it out.  But I have to get back to Jerusalem before I am missed.  I'm going to spend the next two nights at our place in Jerusalem. I don't want anyone to discover where you and Remus are staying.  I'm going to work on a plan, but I need to know you two will be safe."
  "Cato how will I know you are safe?"
  "Don't worry.  I am going to appear to be a loyal Roman soldier.  Only you know my secret.  Somehow I'm going to make this work. I have to go now.  I will be back in a few days."

(to be continued...)

-Susan
  

The Tunic (Part 17)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  "Livia," began Cato, "let's start the evening over.  I would be very interested in hearing about the new neighbors you met today."
  Livia wasn't sure if she should say anything.
  "Please Livia, I would like to talk about this.  I have been thinking a lot about Jesus as well, lately."  Livia was surprised and completely taken off guard with that statement. "I have questioned a lot of people about him.  I have gathered many facts. I was shocked that Remus knew so much about Jesus.  He spoke with such enthusiasm.  He didn't seem to question any of the details.  I don't want him to be disappointed, if Jesus is in fact, just some delusional man who convinced people he knew the one true God.  I don't want you to be hurt with that news either. And......and I don't want any of us to be hurt if he really was God's son."
  Livia was shocked with Cato's words.  She carefully chose her response by asking Cato a question.  "Cato, can you share with me what you have learned about Jesus?"
  "Well I learned that he preached right out in the open.  He drew large crowds.  Besides the Jewish leaders, most people liked what he had to say.  They would sit for hours listening to him without growing bored. He supposedly healed a lot of people.  I have a whole list of ailments people no longer have. He seemed to have helped so many. There doesn't appear to be any obvious selfish motives about his preaching.  He didn't demand people to give him money. He didn't ask for special favors. He didn't encourage anyone to act out against Caesar or Pilate.  He would just ask people to stop sinning and to start taking care of each other."
  Livia began feeling more relaxed as Cato spoke.  "Yes!  That's what Mary and Martha said as well.  He spoke a great deal about love.  He spoke about how much God loves each person and we should imitate God and do the same.  Mary and Martha said just being near Jesus filled them with peace and joy!"
  "Do you really believe their brother was brought back from death?"
  "Yes, I do.  There were many people who witnessed this.  They had been surrounded by friends and family while they were mourning.  People had witnessed Lazarus being placed in the tomb. They saw him come out of the tomb as well.  Both Mary and Martha are very emotional when they described what happened.  It is a very joyful ending to an incredibly painful experience for them.  If only you heard them speak about Jesus yourself, you would be moved by their testimony!"
  "I think I would rather hear it from Lazarus."
  "Would you like me to arrange that?'' Livia asked with anticipation.
  "Livia, we need to be very careful.  There is a lot at stake here.  Do you really think anyone would accept me if they knew what I had done?"
  "Cato, I have thought about this as well. Mary and Martha told me how Jesus healed sinners.  He came for those who were lost.  His healing sinners angered the Pharisees many times, but he continued to do it.  Cato... do you think we are one of the sinners, one of the lost ones that needed healing?  I know the scars on my arms were healed, but I think something inside me has changed, too.  I am not the same person.  I don't know how to explain it, but I have this desire in me to draw closer to Jesus." Very quietly Livia added, " I never felt this way when I prayed to the Roman gods."
  Cato remained silent as he stared at his wife.  He tried to take in everything she was saying.  This conversation was making him uncomfortable.  He felt like his world was being tipped upside down and he wasn't sure if he would land on his feet.  After several long moments Cato replied.  "Livia, I need some time to think about all this. I don't know how. .  . I'm not sure. . . ." Cato let out a big sigh. He shook his head back and forth as if he was arguing with his own thoughts. "I don't know what to think.  I feel different, too, and it scares me."

(to be continued...)

Susan

The Tunic (Part 16)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)

  Cato got on his horse and just started riding.  He had no idea where he was going, but he was too angry to stay still.  He tried to replay everything Livia had said.  Had she given the women too much information about them?  She said she didn't, but could he believe that?  Maybe if he was better at controlling his temper, he would have found out more.  Cato shook his head and began arguing with himself.  "No, this is not my fault.  My temper has nothing to do with it.  She is the one who put us in danger this time.  It's not my fault."  Cato remembered how hurt Livia looked just before he stormed out.  "This is not how I wanted things to go tonight."
  Cato remembered his walk with Remus.  Remus was so happy. He had fun today.  He was very excited about Lazarus being raised from the dead.  Suddenly, Cato brought the horse to a stop.  He began realizing something he had overlooked.  Remus knew incredible details about Jesus and Lazarus.  How could he have known so much?  Everything Remus had told him agreed with the information Cato had discovered while investigating.  Cato shook his head.  How could someone rise from death?  This is all crazy.  Day after day, more and more stories were emerging that Jesus had risen.  His dead body had never been found.  It just didn't make sense.  Cato raised his eyes to the sky and screamed, "How can this be?  Please tell me!  Do you want me to believe this could have happened?"
  After a few minutes Cato returned his gaze to the road.  He suddenly felt foolish.  What was he doing? Did he actually think he would he receive an answer?  As he turned his horse around to head back home, he couldn't ignore a strange feeling in his chest.  His chest felt warm and oddly peaceful all of a sudden. His anger had dissipated. 
  When he finally returned home he saw Remus waiting for him again.  "Papa, Papa please don't be mad at us anymore," begged Remus as Cato dismounted from his horse.
  Cato wrapped his arm around Remus' shoulder and gave him a gentle squeeze.  "I'm not mad at you Remus.  I just was a bit surprised by everything that happened today.  I guess I overreacted."
  Remus smiled, "That's ok."
  "Remus can you give me a few minutes to talk to Mama?"
  "Sure."
  Cato walked inside and saw Livia cleaning.  When she turned to look at him, Cato could tell she had been crying. 
"Livia, I shouldn't have gotten so angry.  I should have given you a chance to explain."
  Livia looked up and stared into Cato's eyes. She longed to tell him what her heart was feeling, but she was afraid. She wasn't the same person anymore. She felt more drawn to Jesus with each passing day.  Talking with Mary and Martha today had been absolutely incredible!  As she listened to them talk about Jesus she yearned to have a similar relationship.  Jesus was their friend.  Their teacher.  He was their Messiah. How could she ever explain these feelings to Cato without angering him?
  Cato stood there staring back at Livia.  He wondered what she was thinking.  As he gazed into her eyes, he was sure that she had never looked more beautiful.  He loved her deeply.  He always had.  He hated that he had allowed his anger to hurt her.  He reached out for her hand.  They both just stood their staring into each other's eyes knowing their relationship was taking a new turn.  They each hoped they would be turning towards each other and not away.

(to be continued...)

-Susan

The Tunic (Part 15)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  Livia rushed to prepare dinner for Cato.  She was very behind.  With any luck he would come home a little later today, and then she would not have to explain anything. When things were getting close, Livia asked, "Remus why don't you go outside and watch for Papa.  Maybe you could show him some of the trails you have been enjoying."
  "Yes, I want to show him my new favorite one! I hope he comes soon."  It wasn't long before Livia could hear Remus shouting.  "He's here!  He's here!" Livia watched as Remus pulled on Cato's hand to follow him.  Livia knew Cato would not be able to refuse him.  She smiled.  Everything would be ready by the time they returned.
  However, Cato did not look too pleased when they returned.  Livia wondered what was wrong.  Livia knew it was best not to question his mood, so she quickly served super avoiding his stare.
  "So, Remus tells me you had visitors today," began Cato.
  Livia quickly looked at Remus trying to determine what exactly he told Cato.  "....yes . . . two neighboring woman stopped by. . . . .They brought us some fresh bread."  Livia glanced up to read Cato's face. He was definitely staring harshly at her.
  "And?" question Cato.
  "And, I'm afraid Remus ate it all.  He was quite hungry."
  "It was very good, Papa!"
  "And what did you talk about?" inquired Cato.
  Livia could tell by the tone in his voice he was not happy.  "Oh, you know, just woman talk.  I thanked them for the bread, they told me about their family.  The two woman are sisters and live with their brother not too far from here."
  "Mama, I told Papa how their brother was dead but then Jesus told him to come out of the tomb!  Tell Papa that story. I really liked listening to that one.  They had lots of good stories about Jesus, but that one was my favorite!"
  "Yes, Livia, please tell me that one.  Please tell me how you talked to complete strangers about Jesus!  I moved you here to be safe!  Did you just jeopardize everything?!"  Cato's face was red and his voice harsh.  "I'm going to great extremes to keep my family safe, and you are willing to risk everything?  Did you tell them who I was?  Did you tell them what I did?!"
  Livia hated when Cato was upset like this.  She knew she had done nothing wrong, but she did not want to provoke him any further.  She just stared at her food and remained silent.
  Cato pounded the table.  "Well, Livia?  Will you not answer my questions?"
  Livia kept her eyes lowered.  Her voice quivered as she answered.  "Cato, I did not talk about you."
  Cato stared at Livia.  "What did you say, then?"
  "I stated only that we had recently moved here from Jerusalem."
  "Did you tell them why?"
  "Of course not."
  "Did you tell them about the tunic?"
  "No."
  "Why would they just come over and start talking about Jesus?"
  "Cato, the woman know Jesus very well.  They have heard him preach.  He has stayed at their house.  He brought their brother back ...." Livia thought twice before she finished her sentence.
  Cato stood up and yelled, "Jesus brought the man back from..... what?"
  Livia quietly let the words escape from her lips.  "Jesus brought Lazarus back from death."  Livia kept her eyes focused on her plate as she heard Cato storm out of the house.
  "Mama why is Papa so mad?  The woman were very nice.  I liked them."
  Livia did her best to blink back her tears as she softly answered Remus, "I liked them, too."

(To be continued...)

-Susan

The Tunic (Part 14)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  "Mama, Mama! I'm back!", yelled Remus as he approached the house.  Livia came out of the house smiling, eager to see Remus. She was very surprised when she saw the two woman with Remus.

  "Remus you haven't gotten yourself into any trouble, have you?," asked Livia.
  Remus laughed, "No, Mama.  I helped them carry their water to their house and they rewarded me with some delicious bread.  We brought some for you, too!"
  "Hello, my name is Martha and this is my sister Mary.  We were very fortunate to cross paths with your son today.  He was very kind to help us."
  Livia smiled as she introduced herself, "I'm Livia.  Please come inside."  As they walked inside Livia told the sisters, "We have just recently moved here. It is just a temporary arrangement.  You are the first neighbors we have met."
  "Where are you from?" asked Mary.
  "Rome, originally," answered Livia, "but we have been living in Jerusalem for over a year now."
  "Oh, is that were you met Jesus, in Jerusalem?" asked Mary.
  Stunned, Livia did not know how to answer.  Why did these woman think she knew Jesus? Livia bit her lip for a minute.
  "It's okay, don't worry.  We are friends of Jesus, too. Remus told us that both of you were  healed by Jesus. Please share your story with us.  We would love to hear it!"
  Livia quickly looked at Remus for an explanation who was completely oblivious to Lidia's stare and apprehension.  He was busy enjoying the bread. Lidia had no idea who these woman were or if it was even safe to talk to them. She could almost sense Cato's disappointing stare and his warning to be quiet.  Livia nervously looked at the sisters wondering what she should say.  "Well... I think it would be rude of me to just start talking about myself...You are the guests, please tell me about yourselves."  Lidia wondered for a second if she had successfully dodged their question.
  Martha and Mary loved to speak about Jesus and eagerly began to share their story.  Martha began, "Well Mary and I live down the street with our brother Lazarus," she paused for a moment to see if Lazarus name meant anything to Livia. " Lazarus was just recently very, very ill.  We sent word out to Jesus that he was in need of healing.  We waited.  Lazarus grew weaker each day and then...."  Martha wiped a tear from her eye and Mary reached over and gently squeezed her hand.
  "It is okay, Martha.  He is back with us."
  "Yes, I know, but it is still very difficult to remember that moment."  Livia felt slightly uncomfortable as if this moment was too private to be sharing, yet she desperately wanted to know what happened. Martha took a deep breath in and then clasped her hands over her heart as she let the words unwillingly escape, "He died."
  Livia gasped.  "Oh, I'm so sorry..."
  Martha shook her head and said, "Don't be.  It was a part of God's Plan. God allowed Lazarus to die, so that Jesus could bring him back to life!"
  Livia's eyes grew wide as she tried to understand what Martha was saying. In an instant she remembered Cato speaking of Jesus bringing a man back to life.  "Oh, I can't believe this," Livia thought to herself, "Is Lazarus the same man Cato was referring to?"
  "Jesus came four days after we had placed Lazarus into his tomb.  In the midst of us all mourning, Jesus came and I met him on the road. I remember His words vividly.  He said, 'I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies,  and everyone who lives and believes in Me will never die. Do you believe this?'  I told Jesus that I believed that he was the Christ, the Son of God! I then quickly went to find Mary back at the house.  Together we showed Jesus Lazarus' tomb. The stone was rolled back and Jesus said in a loud voice,'Lazarus, come forth!'  And Lazarus walked out of the tomb still wearing all his wrappings!  Jesus brought my brother back to life! I was filled with incredible joy!"
  Livia could feel her heart beating with joy as Martha spoke each word. "Please tell me more," Livia begged.  "I want to know every detail!"
  Martha and Mary took turns telling Livia everything about Lazarus' death. Livia couldn't believe the close relationship the family had with Jesus. Both woman could repeat everything Jesus had shared with them. Hours passed before any of them even noticed.  Livia hung on every word the women spoke.  She desperately wanted to know everything about Jesus.  He was even more incredible than she had imagined.
  "Livia, please, tell us how Jesus healed you and Remus," Mary asked politely.
  Livia wasn't sure she should share her story.  What would Mary and Martha think of her if they knew her husband had been one of the Roman soldiers which had crucified their dear friend?  Livia knew she could learn so much more from these two.  Both of them believed without a doubt that Jesus, too, had been resurrected.  After all Jesus himself had said, "I am the Resurrection and the life!"  Livia thought quickly.  "I would love to share our story, but I"m afraid I must begin my chores before my husband returns.  Could we get together again soon?"
  "Yes.  We would enjoy that!  Next time you will tell us all about your encounter with Jesus!" said Mary.

(to be continued....)

-Susan

The Tunic (Part 13)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)

  Cato continued to search for the truth.  Day after day he searched for the body of Jesus without success. Even Jesus' closest disciples couldn't  be found.  All these unknowns made Cato very nervous.  He managed to find a small house just outside of Jerusalem in Bethany for Livia and Remus to live until things settled down. Cato still feared he may be punished for his role in Jesus' crucifixion.
  As the days turned into weeks, Cato found that people were more willing to speak about Jesus.  Cato was surprised to discover that Jesus was a man of peace and compassion.  His miracles were even more numerous than Cato had originally thought.  With each passing story, Cato yearned to learn more.  Jesus was far more interesting than Cato had imagined. His death made absolutely no sense.  
  Livia was not pleased with the move to Bethany.  She desperately wanted to learn more about Jesus.  She was afraid that living outside of Jerusalem would prevent her from ever meeting the risen Jesus.  Each night Livia would pray,  "Jesus make yourself known to me. I desire to spend my life thanking you."
  Remus seemed to adjust more quickly to the move.  He was always so happy now.  He was eager to discover the world.  Previously, he had thought his life would consist of sitting in a chair and watching the world go by.  Now that he was free of pain, every day offered unlimited possibilities.
  A week after they had moved to Bethany, Remus asked Livia if he could take a morning walk.  "Just promise me you will be careful and not go too far," pleaded Livia as she attended to her household chores.
  "Don't worry, I promise to be good," Remus replied with a smile.  As he made his way down to the end of a long road, he noticed two woman struggling with their basins of water.  "Could I help you carry your water?"  he asked.
  The women smiled.  "Thank you so much.  We are blessed to have a strong young man help us."
  Remus flashed the women a big smile.  He liked thinking of himself as strong.  "Well I wasn't always this strong," Remus answered.  "Before Jesus healed me, I could barely walk."
   "You know Jesus, too?!  Oh, we would love to hear how Jesus healed you.  Jesus is a close friend of ours.  He healed our brother as well.  Please tell us your story."
  Remus told the women about the fire and how he had been badly burned. "Walking hurt so much.  Usually I just sat, and sometimes, even doing nothing was painful.  Then my mom placed Jesus' tunic on me and I felt something change in me.  And now I can walk and run and carry heavy stuff! I'm healed!"
  The women were fascinated with Remus.  "Remus we made some fresh bread this morning.  Perhaps we could bring some to your mother. We would love to meet her and talk more about your healing."
  "Fresh bread sounds delicious!" replied Remus. "My mom and I are trying to learn more about Jesus.  Maybe you could tell us what he is like?"
  "We would love too!" answered Martha.  

(to be continued....)

-Susan

The Tunic (Part 12)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  Cato found Livia and Remus waiting outside for his return.  Remus again came running towards him.  Cato thought it was the most joyous and beautiful sight ever.  Moments earlier Cato was completely exhausted, but now seeing Remus, he was filled with new energy.
  "Papa, Papa have you heard?!"
  Cato quickly dismounted from his horse and ran towards Remus.  "Have I heard what?"
  "Jesus might be alive again!" Remus said grinning from ear to ear.
  "Where did you hear that?" questioned Cato.
  "Mama and I took another walk around town and we heard people talking about it!  Isn't it great!"
  Cato didn't know what to say.  He drew his lips tight together afraid the wrong words might escape. He loved seeing Remus smile again.
  Lidia sensed her husband's stress.  "Remus let's all go inside and eat dinner. I'm sure Papa is hungry and tired after such a long day. He needs some rest."
  "Can I play outside for a little longer? I already ate."
  Livia looked questionably at her husband and shrugged her shoulders.  "We didn't know when you would be home.  I gave him an early dinner.  He gets so hungry know that he can run around and play."
  Cato nodded yes and headed inside.  He really didn't know what to say to Remus' news, and appreciated Livia giving him a chance to collect his thoughts.  Dinner smelled delicious and Cato realized he hadn't eaten all day.
  Livia placed a generous plateful in front of Cato.  Cato seemed lost in thought.  She knew she had to chose her words carefully.  She thought for a moment as Cato enjoyed his dinner.  "You're home late today. You must have had a very busy day."
  Cato let out a sigh.  "It was a long, unsuccessful day of searching."
  "Oh?....What were you searching for?" asked Livia.
  "The body of Jesus."
  "What?  Is it true then?  It's missing?" Livia asked trying to restrain her excitement.
  "His body is missing from the tomb.  No one is claiming to have taken it and we can't find it.  And believe me, we have searched.  Pilate is furious!  He wants his body found and nobody knows where it is.  We've been door to door asking if anyone has any information.  So far we have come up with nothing."
  "Nothing?"
  "Well...we have some stories that Jesus predicted he would rise again.  There are stories that he had healed people who had died and brought them back to life.  One man, Lazarus, was in the tomb 3 days when he raised him to life."
  "Cato that is amazing!  How could an ordinary person perform such miracles?"
  "They are stories Livia.  How can people be brought back to life?  I have never seen it happen.  If a man had this kind of power, then how could he not have stopped his own crucifixion?"
  Livia remained silent for a few minutes while Cato continued to eat.  She knew in her heart that she had been healed by Jesus, but she had no explanation as to why this God would allow His son to be crucified.  It was such a horrible way to die.  But...what if Jesus really was alive?  Livia desperately wanted to meet him now.  She wanted Remus to meet him!  She wanted to say thank you, she wanted to....follow him?....Yes, she wanted to be a follower of Jesus!  Very cautiously Livia allowed a few words to escape.  "I hope he is alive."
  Cato froze with the sound of her words.  "Livia, you are a sensible person.  Please stop this nonsense.  It can't be possible.  Livia I helped crucify the man.  He is dead!  We put a sword through his heart.  I removed his body from the cross and placed it in his mother's arms.  The man is dead!  People don't come back from the dead!"
  Livia never liked confrontations with Cato, but she couldn't help herself.  "Cato look at your son.  How do you explain his healing?  Look at my arms.  How are the scars gone?  How is the terrible pain gone?"
  Cato shook his head and pounded the table.  "I don't know...I don't know...."  Cato closed his eyes as his hands tried to stop his head from spinning.  How were they healed? Terrible pain? Livia had never spoken of her own pain.  All these months she had remained silent, focusing only on Remus.  Cato was confused, he was tired, and .... a little scared. He could feel his heart racing. What if Jesus really could rise from the dead?  Would he come get revenge on Cato for crucifying him? Would his followers try to get revenge for Jesus?  Is his family even safe here while he is gone all day?  If anything ever happened to them again while he was gone, he couldn't live with himself. Maybe they should move.  He has to keep his family safe. Where could they go?  Can you even hide from God?  Cato's thoughts pounded one after another on his brain demanding answers. (Suddenly breathing became difficult. Why was he perspiring so much?) He would do whatever he had to do. He knew how to fight. His face felt flushed and he just wanted to scream when he felt Livia's soft touch on his shoulder.
  "Cato, I'm sorry.  I should have remained silent.  I'm sorry I have angered you."  When Cato opened his eyes, he saw his wife's beautiful, tear stained face begging for forgiveness.  Instinctively, he took her hands in his and gently kissed them. He let out a very deep sigh.  "Livia, it has been a very long day.  I have no answers tonight, but I promise that I will search for the truth."

(to be continued...)

-Susan

The Tunic (part 11)

(The Tunic is a fictional story based on the Passion of Jesus. The story began on post March 18, 2019.)


  Cato was about to report into work when he saw one of his fellow soldiers running towards his horse. The soldier was obviously very upset. He looked at Cato and just started yelling.  "It's not my fault!  I didn't take his body!  No one did! The whole ground started shaking and there was a powerful source of light. It was too bright to even look at it!  But I saw something move the stone away with ease.  Trust me it wasn't human! He never carried out anything from the tomb, because the tomb was empty!  It's not my fault!  I don't know what happened to his body!  It's just not there!"
  "What are you talking about?  Whose body is gone?"
  "The King of the Jews--that Jesus preacher--the one we just crucified!  I'm getting out of here!  Pilate is furious! Someone is going to pay for this and it's not going to be me!"  The soldier jumped on his own horse as swiftly as possible and commanded the horse to run.
  Cato could feel his body shaking. What did this even mean? Why would anyone take the body of Jesus?  For what purpose?  Suddenly a few more soldiers came running from the court yard.
  "I don't see him anywhere! We will deal with him later."  They looked at Cato and yelled, "Pilate wants everyone to report directly to him right now!  We've got problems!"
  A few moments later Cato found himself and others in front of a very angry Pilate. " We need to find Jesus' body and get it back into that tomb! If we don't we are probably going to see another riot!" screamed Pilate.  "There are reports that Jesus rose from the dead!  The Jewish leaders claim his followers stole his body! I think everyone has lost their minds!  Find me that body and the ones responsible for taking it!"
  Cato and his fellow soldiers searched the streets.  No one was claiming to have stolen the body.  Few would even talk to the soldiers out of fear.  No one seemed to know where his small group of followers were hiding.  They spent the entire day searching with little to report. Only a few people were willing to speak. They all claimed Jesus predicted he would be raised up.  He had just recently rose a man named Lazarus from the dead. Also there were reports of two young children being raised from the dead.
  When they reported back to Pilate, Pilate was again furious.  He sent them back into the streets. It was obvious no one was going to talk to a Roman soldier about what had occurred.  After a very long and unsuccessful day, Cato and the others were allowed to return home but ordered to begin the search again early tomorrow.
  Exhausted, Cato rode home trying to understand how someone could rise from the dead?  In the army, he had seen men die all around him.  No one ever comes back once they die.  None of this made any sense. Cato's mind couldn't understand any of this, but his heart began to secretly hope Jesus was alive. It was such an odd feeling to have.

(to be continued...)

-Susan